When I came to college, someone asked me where I was from. No, they did not mean where in the United States but where in Mexico I was from. Now at the time the question did not bother me but with time it would build up into a bigger problem.
You can’t assume that because I am brown I am illegal and from Mexico – which I am Mexican but that is beside the point.
Another day at a party, a random guy was talking to my friend and I for about 20 minutes. He proceeded to compliment how beautiful we were but what bothered me is the word choice. This white male compliments my friend by saying how beautiful she is and turns to me and says how exotic I am. In my mind I thought of every direction this could go with but decided to stay quiet.
Listening in to my friends’ conversations, during dinner or when hanging out as a group, I could never relate to what they were saying.
I grew up watching overdramatic novelas, listening to music ranging from Daddy Yankee to Juan Gabriel to Vicente Fernandez. My diet consisted of enchiladas, tacos (real tacos), tamales en Navidad, and raspados on a summer day. I grew up with the banging of pots every Sunday morning, to avoiding telling my mom I was bored or else she would say “pues ponte a limpiar” and she would make it a cleaning day, and when she was on the phone with my aunt in Mexico I had to talk to her no matter what.
At that moment I realized that I was learning to love my brown skin, that it did not matter if I didn’t know the lyrics to high school musical or have never seen Harry Potter. What mattered to me was that I loved my culture, my upbringing, and I loved waking up to a cleaning day because that meant listening to corridos, norteñas, and cumbias.
Loving my brown skin meant I was different from everyone else, it meant that I could insult every guy in Spanish who always said to me “say something sexy in Spanish”. Loving my brown, Latina skin meant that even though my body isn’t like Sofia Vergara, I can make some bomb tacos, shake my hips to the beat of the music, sing all the words to Tragos de
Amargo Licor, and break the barriers by being a first-generation college student.
Gracias a Dios por ser Latina.