Although I have crossed a few things off of my winter to do list, I still have this feeling of guilt that I am being completely unproductive. I am enjoying the time off and the lessened responsibilities, being taken care of, all the tamales, posole, buñuelos, (flavorful food in general) and so on, but I have struggled with accepting that I can joyfully take this time to do things that I love. It has taken me some time to put things into perspective and understand that I will never have this time again. I will never be this age or have this time than in this moment. I only have but two more undergrad winter breaks to live before I enter a world of greater responsibilities. For now, I am enjoying spending my days extending conversations beyond the “how was fall semester?” talk, reading for pure pleasure, bingeing a bit on Netflix, eating my mami’s cooking, applying for study abroad for junior year, and preparing to take on what Spring 2016 at Smith has in store for me.